Rest in peace

There is a battle in my mind
A tussle of the Heavy weights
A conflict within self
A judge always present
Mercilessly devouring me
Handcuffs chaining my elf
With pity slaughtering my vision
My hopes already in trenches
My faith in doubt mode
My passion enclosed in persona jail
With Fail rewarding with rhetorics

I feel useless
I feel wasted
Brainwashed and just a busy body
Nothing to show for my efforts
No rewards to my hustle
No moola to quench my bills
No job to marinate my skills
No faith to uphold my hopes

And then

Life feels numb
Existence sounds dumb
With acidity eating my health raw
Failure torturing my brain
Anxiety running my life affairs
Panic & depression all docked in my soul
As suicide courts me in silence
I feel worthless
My heart hurts
My bones are crushing
I am silently dying from inside
Hoping One day I will rest in Peace.